I am sorry....Let me explain

I know that I wanted to write everyday but things were placed in my path that were unavoidable and I couldn't find the time to blog.

My father's health took a turn and he spent some time in the hospital.  If you know me, I am a daddy's girl and it really hit me hard since I am not close to where he is at.  So when he gets sick and has to go into the hospital, it kills me that I can't be there.  This time, both of my parents got sick and I felt so helpless because I wasn't there. What hurt more was that I had no support from a person that I thought cared about me.  I was there for this person when his parent was sick and made sure that they were taken care of.  I tell this person about my father and they would rather sleep then tell me it was going to be OK.  Now don't get me wrong, I wasn't looking for this certain person to bend over backwards to make me feel better, but I just wanted a little more concern than what I got.  I wound up leaning on a shoulder of a friend that I would have never thought would be there for me like that.  But I am over it now and my father is on the track of getting better so that is what I am focusing on now.

I am going to be starting back with my trainer in February.  I talked with him about what was going on with my family and he said that I needed to focus on that and then when it evens out, we will start back so that I won't lose what I have already done.  I am 12lbs and 4 inches down and don't want to go backward.  My next training session is on Monday the 5th so that is when I am going to start back with my diet as well.  I am not really straying off it right now but I really haven't been really been watching it as close as I had.  I haven't fallen to far off the wagon so it shouldn't be that hard to get right back on track.

OK, so there you have it.  I am hopefully going to start back writing everyday but I am not going to promise it.  I will say this, I will do my very best to keep you all informed as much as I can.

See ya later!

I missed a day...Let me explain...

I am sorry that I missed a day but last night I had a lot to do to prepare for a special lady...My sweet friend, Ansleigh Baxter.  I had to cook to prepare for her baby shower I was privileged to help put together.  The most credit goes to my friends Carra Rathburn, Beth Trammell, Natalie Thompson, and Karen Eller.  All I did was show up and help set things up.  I had 2 of the easiest jobs, making sausage balls and making punch(which turned out to be a HUGE hit).  I surprised Ansleigh.  I had to "lie" to her so she wouldn't find out.  I kept telling her I wish I could see her cute belly.  I don't get the chance to see any of my friends anymore because we live so far apart.  So today, I went back to my home Church and had a really good day.  I really do miss everyone so much and I hope that I can make it back more often.  I am going to try because I feel at home there and can't find another church that makes me feel that.

I still have an unfinished mission there and I will be back to fix it... stay tuned.

Friday the 13th...not really that bad

Usually when you see on the calendar that there is going to be a Friday the 13th, you cringe.  This one came so quick, I didn't have a chance to realize it was here.

I snowed where I worked today and Thank Goodness it didn't stick!  That really would have sucked!

Not much really going on today... I know that I will have something to talk about tomorrow.  At least I am keeping my word and writing at least something, even if it is just a few sentences.

Over 25 Years.... where did the time go?

Twenty-five years ago, I finally got to know what it felt like to become an aunt.  Now don't get me wrong, I had been an aunt for almost 3 years by then but I didn't know about those pregnancies and I wouldn't trade those times either.  My 1st nephew was born on 1-12-1987, Robert Clayton Buck II... Know known as Robert Clayton Anderson....**I will explain later**

This was the 1st pregnancy in our family that wasn't a surprise.  I got to watch my sister's belly grow and anticipate his arrival.  He was the first boy in my family, after 5 girls and 2 granddaughters, so you know that we REALLY spoiled him!! LOL  Still do!  He is now a grown man and I couldn't be any prouder if I was mother!  He was raised by 2 great people and one of those people loved him so much that she endured a lot to make him the man he is today... That person is my sister, Kim.  I love her and her other two children, Jacob(16) and Emma(11), very much and they are all blessed to have a wonderful mother like her.  

That whole family has been through a lot this year but GOD has blessed them and loved them through their pain.  They lost Kim's Husband, Steve, in March and he has been deeply missed.  I thank GOD for Steve's presence in Robert's life when Robert needed a positive role model.  Steve entered into Kim and Robert's life when Robert was around 5 years old.  Kim was taking care of him on her own and doing a great job.  After a couple of years of dating, Steve asked Robert if he could marry his mama...December 11,1993, they became a family.  Years later, after some issues I don't want to talk about, Robert asked Steve to take his last name.  That is why he is now known as Robert Clayton Anderson.  Steve was a great father to him, Jacob, and  Emma and I am thankful for that.

I now have 6 nieces(Courtney, Sonja, Kyla, Kirsten, Emma, Ariana) and 5 nephews (Robert, Jacob, Jeremiah, Aedan, Aleks) and I am a very proud Aunt of all of them. I want them to know that I do love them and they are all special to me in their own way.  I am far away from them but if they were to EVER need me, I will be there.  I love them as if they were my own children.  I have helped raise most of them.  

Robert can now share his birthday with my good friend Celeste's new bundle born today, Major Silas Cross... 8 pounds 2 ounces, 20 inches long at 4:40pm.  Although he isn't family, he is one of many "Extra" nieces and nephews that I have accumulated from my church family.  I love all those babies and when I get a chance to see them, I try my best to be there.  I am happy to say that there are more babies to come and I can't wait.  This has been a great day for reflection and I am glad that I now have a new "family" member.

Welcome to the world Major!  We have been patiently waiting to meet you!  Happy Birthday Robert, I love you so much!

Progress... just wanted to let you know

One week ago, I told you all that I signed up for a personal trainer at my new gym and he is already changed my appointment twice!!  I mean, are you trying to make me blow my bucket list already!!  NO SIR!  So tomorrow, I am going to take what I have learned and try it on my own.  I am not giving up!

This isn't going to be very long, had a pretty long day at work and was hoping to have a good tough workout so that I could rest good tonight, but that didn't happen.  Gonna read and then go to bed... stay tuned!

10...Is it really perfect?

Why does everyone think 10 is such a perfect number?  Is it because if you add the numbers that make it, it is 1...which everyone wants to be?  You know, #1 in a race, #1 in the ratings, #1 at the box office.... so what is the big deal about 10?

OK, I will give you my theory on it.... Most human beings have 10 fingers, which means most of us can count to 10 (I'm hoping anyway), and therefore I feel that is how they came up with the phrase "The perfect 10."  Pretty simple....If you really think about it, any even number is perfect because it can be split equally.  Like our hands, five fingers on each hand and our hands are mirror images, well you get the picture.

The reason why I am bringing this up is because my manager asked us for 5 business goals and 5 personal goals for the year.  Not only do I have to make sure my customers pay, I have to sit and think about how I am going to improve my store and myself.... More pressure on me to make sure my goals are met along with making budget at my store that Corporate seems to think that I SHOULD make during the year.... I made a bucket list of 10 things I want to do this year.  Everything seems to be coming to me with "10" in it... and to top it off, today is the 10th of January....LOL  Go figure!

I don't want to be a perfect 10 because then I would have to live up to that title for the rest of my life.  I just can't see how someone can put that much of a burden on someone else.  It is hard enough to be the person we are today!  Why put that much pressure one someone to obtain perfection when it will never happen!

So let me end with this, we are all unique and wonderful so don't go and screw it up and try to be perfect for me.

That is all....well for now anyway

Not quite what I wanted...

Things didn't go the way that I hoped today.  I had to reschedule my appointment with the doctor because she had an emergency at the hospital, so I saw my trainer for a few minutes today.  My trainer looks a lot like Dolvett on the Biggest Loser, but he is darker skinned.... JUST GREAT!  But I can see that he isn't going to go nice on me :o)  Yes, that is a smiley face.  I don't want an easy ride.  It didn't take long to do this to my body so I NEED to have my butt kicked for what I have done.  He did say that I am going about this the right way. That he could tell that I am determined and not just "make a New Year's resolution" to break in a few weeks.  He told me to put myself on a High Protein, Low Carb diet.  This is the part that I am going to need help with.  I got the protein down, but knowing how many carbs I can eat and keeping up with them is going to be tough.  I have found something to read and it is helping me with my choices so I will let you know if it is true... I will keep it a secret until then...LOL

I know that I am going to be so sore once I get going but I am ready!  I am just tired of wanting to do something instead of just sitting there waiting for it to happen.  I know this time last year, I was on a treadmill or walking around my store's property...not sitting still!  I didn't wait until the weather changed because it was cold, I just did it.  I worked out to my DVDs from the Biggest Loser and watched what I ate, but now I need to tone not just lose.  I need WEIGHTS!  I just hope that I don't lose a couple of "blessings" because I kinda like "my girls." (If I have lost you on that sentence.... sorry)  I want to keep my curves but just look better with them :o)

I went grocery shopping and bought some of the things that I need....salmon, chicken, sandwich meat(all low carbs).  The only thing missing is snacks but I did find some that I hope work out.  It is hard to find low carb foods!!!!  I am trying to plan my meals that are under 100 grams of Carbs.  I may be a little over but I am going to make sure that doesn't hurt me.  I will eventually figure it out but until then, I will make it work.

My next training is Wednesday... I will let you know how the first full workout went.... I just hope I will be able to type...LOL!